#SOCS – Sole and Soul

I have always been a lonely soul. Ever since I was a small child, I liked to be left alone to get on with my latest creative obsession or to read my most recent book. I never liked being interfered with and I have never appreciated being disturbed unexpectedly. Unplanned play dates or friends dropping by equaled a ruined afternoon or day for me. I am not spontaneous. I can remember popping into my bedroom to read a few pages of my book in the middle of a play date because I had lost interest in the friend and become frustrated with the games she wanted to play.

The reason for this was simple. Friends didn’t like doing the things I enjoyed for the same periods of time. I was a focused and creative soul who could sit all day sewing bits of material together and gluing them to a plastic margarine tub to make a baby’s carry cot or moulding plaster of paris into a shape and then fastidiously painting it to become a Disney princess masterpiece. I made corn dolls, tomato box doll houses, paper dolls, Barbie doll clothes and various sculptures from all sorts of mediums but I always did these things on my own. I usually played with them on my own too.

Now I am older and I am still the same. I like to be the sole captain of my ship and find teamwork a strain. I like to be in control of every aspect of what I am responsible for delivering. I can be the life and soul of a party but only for a limited period while I am enjoying myself. Once the gilt has worn off the proverbial gingerbread, I want to go back to my own things and be left in peace to do them. That is how I manage to produce so much in the limited time available to me. I focus with complete attention on the task at hand, whether it be work, blogging, writing promotional material or writing. I don’t hear or see anything outside of my creative or work world when I am in it.

My sister says it is bad for my soul. I should not be so obsessive and spend so much time alone. She is especially concerned when I write ghost and murder stories that it is bad for me and that it will attract negative vibes to my family. She may be right but it is unlikely that I could change my behaviour, even if I wanted to, which I don’t. It is in my make up to be obsessive and focused. It makes me a jolly good worker. I have also passed it on and now I have an obsessive and focused son to keep me company. We work side by side in quiet companionship without disturbing each other. Two lonely souls.

This post was written for Linda G Hill’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday. You can join in here: https://lindaghill.com/2019/03/15/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-march-16-19/

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37 thoughts on “#SOCS – Sole and Soul

  1. I understand your approach to life. Tell your sister that it’s possible that you are exorcising the negative vibes when you write about such things – thus saving her from all that is evil. Hey, it’s possible.

    Nice response to the prompt!

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    1. Thank you, Dan. What you say is possible. I don’t believe that writing about ghosts and the supernatural brings bad things your way, that is very superstitious and I am not that. I really enjoy the history and drama of it all.

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  2. Teamwork and waiting for someone else to deliver part of what you need to finish a work task is miserable to me. I know I can’t do it all alone but when I can, that is bonus. I knew my husband then boyfriend was the one for me when we took our first road trip and didn’t speak the entire time. Instead we listened to the radio blasting our favorite songs. Quiet companionship is an apt description but definitely not lonely.

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  3. I’m the same way, Robbie. I call it “introverted” rather than focused or obsessed. I can be social, but like you, only for a short period of time. I’m frequently annoyed that extroversion is considered “normal” and we, the introverts, are considered somehow “impaired.” Yeesh. They’re just different ways of enjoying life. Tell your sister that she’s the only one displaying “negative energy.” Ha ha. You are perfectly fine. 🙂

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  4. I resemble these remarks. So much to say… if we had time we’d have a cuppa, but then I have artwork to do.
    I’m not introverted. I’m okay in company and well-behaved most of the time but I don’t prefer it unless it is a few GOOD friends not a crowd, people who are not into chit-chat. I find chit-chat boring unless I know the person really really well and am interested in their minutia. I spent a lot of time alone mostly because I followed three big brothers by 13 years and so was an almost only child. I LIKED coloring and making coloring books and building Barbie houses more than Barbie herself. I can and have gone for months with little interaction (market in a small town or maybe coffee before market) because I like the intense creative time. Thankfully my husband is fine with my creative time and can be quiet himself and so it is great.
    To those who say we need to be more social, I say, “what are you running from that you can’t be by yourself in the silence and see what comes up!?!”
    Also, have your sister look at shadow sides. Those that are more likely to go crazy and do the things you write about are not the ones writing about them… they are the ones who spend years being happy happy good people… BWA-HA-HAAAA!

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    1. Thank you. I also have a husband who is happy to let me get on with my creative things. I have two sons and I do spend time with them but they also like to read and do there own things now they are older. I think you are right, people who write dark stories are often good people. Imagination does not blacken the soul. Thanks for visiting.

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  5. What some people call “obsessed” others recognize as determined. Be you.<3

    You sound introverted. Which reminds me I've been wanting to read Quiet: The Power of Introverts. Thanks for the reminder.:-)

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  6. As a writer, I don’t think you’re ever lonely. You have so many characters nesting in your head. So many stories waiting to escape. Creativity is the passage through which all this happens.

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  7. Just be…Robbie…I am the same…I love to socialise(sometimes) but my time is my time ….I learnt that a long time ago and luckily that is respected in my house…It is me….Go you … xx

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  8. Robbie – you are my soul sister. I’m nodding and agreeing with everything you wrote. I say you’re not isolated and obsessed, I say you’re a thriving INFJ… and welcome to our unique club lovely one!

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  9. I tend to enjoy more quietness and solitude than the rest of my family, which makes it a little rough sometimes. But we try to keep things balanced between all of our needs as best we can.

    I sent you an email last week to let you know you won the Laura Ingalls Wilder reading challenge. If you’ll email me which prize you wanted and your address, I’ll be happy to get that to you asap. Congratulations!

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